Whateva’s Cleva :::pfft!:::

Well it’s a new day, new week etc...

Not sure if that’s good or not? I guess only time will tell? 

I think I’m a little fed up with some things and a little overjoyed about others... won’t say which is which or what I mean. Just know that I’m changing in so many ways (good & bad) yet still remain the same. 

I don’t know where life will take me, but I know that I’ve done all I can to be true to myself and live as much as I could. 

Hopefully that will matter to some...most likely not all. 

I just don’t care anymore really. 

Anyone can do what they want and that includes me.

Sooooo.... 

Feeling Meh

Not sure what’s up with me but I’m feeling sorta melancholy.

I’m not unhappy really, it’s just a weird feeling I’m having that I can’t seem to shake or fix I suppose. Like somethings missing maybe? Or just feeling “off” somehow... I don’t know really.

I’m usually pretty optimistic & upbeat in general, even when I’m not, I am... you get me?

So when I feel like this... it’s not only disconcerting, but confusing as well...and I don’t know what to really do about it except write... and that’s what I’m doing.

Maybe this will be enough & I’ll just feel better later on, having gotten this off my chest in a way. Who knows though.

I want to say this has nothing to do with anyone or anything going on in my life. I’m thankful for any distractions and/or hobbies I’ve been able to partake in & I really enjoy having others to share interests & stuff with. You can never have enough good people around you me thinks?

So what is it then?

I’m truly hoping it’s just a passing mood that will ... well, you know....

pass.

Only time will tell.

On the bright side, I’ve been having fun exploring and finding new & different communities to engage in.

I’ve felt more comfortable being just me & having fun. I’m trying to get back into gaming since I’ve always loved playing games since I was little, but man have they gotten way more complicated over the years & I have not gotten more savvy at learning these things, unfortunately. So it’s been a bit of a struggle. Sure I can play little slow paced games & I enjoy them sometimes, but sometimes they are just too slow & I get sooooo bored!

So I looked for some more action packed stuff & found “Call of Duty” mobile on iOS which seemed right up my alley... until I started playing & had numerous weapons & settings to choose from! Ughz!!!

I am soooo not good with tons of choices lol ... but it’s still fun even getting repeatedly killed & then shown a beautiful replay of my death in graphic detail each time... in case I didn’t know how or where I was shot lol.

I am such a newb yet other players invite me back into additional games so I dunno. :::shrug::::

Oh & the best part is they don’t know anything about me other than my game stats...so I’m only being judged on my gameplay. Not sure if that’s good or bad yet lol.

Ahhh ok well I’m gonna stop for now. This felt good to write.

Hoping it transfers to my physical mood ...one can hope!