All Over the Place!

I created this graphic above because I liked The saying :-)

Today’s #FriskyFriday live broadcast was interesting. I probably let myself be a bit too open with my “stories” but it’s all in fun. 

So I’ve been thinking bout what I wrote last & had a slight change of heart I think? Maybe that’s the wrong term but basically I do understand why everyone chooses whatever they choose. For the same reasons anyone does I guess...nothing happened to make them want to do  otherwise. 

Whether they are comfortable or even just scared, that’s the way they feel & nothing I think or say will change anyone. We are a sum of all our own experiences & unfortunately, for the most part anyway, it makes us who we are. So it’s not our fault we didn’t get certain opportunities that would make us want anything better or more. 

But! I also think most of life is mundane or meaningless...constantly doing the same stuff over & over or worrying over stuff that won’t mean much in the end anyway  & then your just gone (Boo!) having never really “lived” at all to begin with... unless, (and yes everyone gets free will for this reason) 

You choose to create those experiences you weren’t handed & see from a different perspective to maybe get more outta life? 

We make decisions based on our knowledge of things experienced. If we have more experience, maybe it would make those decisions way less complicated or if not... life will just be more fun? lol    

I used to say that I was okay with never doing anything “more” because I think I’ve done a decent amount of “living” & I feel lucky with that....but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to live more if I have the chance. Plus, I always say life is short, but each time I learn something new...It makes me see that it really is short & no matter what we do, there will always be soooo much more we didn’t get to do. 

Lately, I’ve been all about “feeling” & trying to find stuff that makes me feel anything aside from negativity or boredom. 

Although...I think I may be starting to get more of a “who cares anymore” attitude about everything.,.not that I don’t care about anything, but more like, I’m not worrying over what may happen, so much. 

What I’m saying is,.... I’m just going “with” the moments as they come & trying to live in them without thinking about all the stuff that may or may not come after or anything aside from what I’m feeling right then & there. 

Now that I’m writing it out though... doesn’t sound as good as it is...

Ughz... well I have a lot going through my head right now & not sure how to get it out anymore :::sigh::: 

Sometimes I feel like I’m already gone & just haven’t completely disappeared yet. Yeah that probably makes no sense. 

Okay well that’s all she wrote for now... because she’s realizing she’s going off track a bit & needs to stop before ... ahhh don’t mind me :-) 

Hopefully I’ll make sense again next time? :::shrug:::

Niterz 🌙